A bid farewell to Grace

I received phone call from Grace yesterday.
"I got the job!! I will submit my resignation letter tomorrow"
Ougghh.
I was speechless at my end not because I was not happy for her.
Our line manager was right in front of me.
And I guess, I was thinking of my own future...

I am gonna miss you, Grace.
You're definitely one of my limited best friends here.
Thank you for your support and...of course guidance throughout our fun, hard, and even most difficult situation.
Goodbye is a part of life..With a farewell there is another helo awaits..
I wish you a good luck in your career and life.

After one and a half months

One and a half months in a new office, with no internet connection, I feel like remoted from the outer world. I am not exagerrating, since i've been an internet savvy for many years.
I also still have not found the "feel" yet. The chemistry with colleagues, peers, and the company. I hope I find it soon. I do not expect any big trouble at the moment.

Emails from some old friends cheer me up though. In the middle of hectic days at the office or the gloomy feeling of not "expressing my true self", it is really a big deal. Matter a lot.

I try not to look back and compare. As a wise man said, "Look at what you have left, do not look at what you have lost".

I miss the loud silly chat with marcom friends, I miss chatting with Ferry, I miss laughing with Ale, I miss teasing Dul.

No, no...no tears.

Final days at the office (1)

I am kind of a shotgun Sam person--a kind of person who gives snap response to things, and now I regret myself for being mad to one of my colleagues.

I wish I could turn back time and let him flying with his illusion, opinion or whatever it was. Instead I exploded and I would never forget his calm (but I think it was startled) face. I am an open character and a lot of times LOL too much, but I am also sensitive. I hope he can forgive me for throwing such words.

Six working days left. After that, I will leave this institution and back to corporate. This is the fact that he doesn't know. This is not about friendship or even more. This is about professionality and a direction of my life. I choosed for what I think will be best for my family. I had signed the contract, dear friend. My life has to move on and so has yours...

Thanks for Your Present

Yesterday was my birthday. I was so sad thinking that nothing big happened. My hubby and daughter are also away.





After office hour, still on my desk, I was thinking how sorry I am when my colleague entered my cubicle and started a conversation. Apparently it became a sharing session. We shared our past stories. We were friends during elementary school period and were parted until three months ago I joined this institution.





Listening to her story, knowing how my past was and what I've got today I feel how much I am blessed. I am blessed to have a dear husband and daughter as well as a full-supported family. Sometimes we just look to other's window and see how comfort their sofa is without knowing how it is really like to sit on that sofa.





Thanks God for this life, this health, this wealth, and most of all the family. It's the loveliest present.

image: taken from eyehook.com

Perjalanan kali ini (Dirgahayu Indonesia)

Sebuah perjalanan seringkali memiliki banyak arti. Perjalananan saya kali ini menuju Pati. Kota kecil yang kira-kira memakan tiga jam perjalanan (dalam kondisi lalu lintas lancar) dari Semarang. Sepanjang jalan menyusuri Demak, Kudus, hingga hampir sampai perbatasan Pati-Jepara, mata saya tidak berhenti menatap pemandangan kota yang sederhana.

Saya pikir, betapa tidak adilnya jika saya bandingkan kota-kota ini dengan Jakarta. Tidak ada Starbukcs, MC Donald, Carrefour, ataupun Mango. Disini tanah adalah segalanya: warisan nenek moyang dan sumber penghidupan. Disini sepertinya hidup berjalan lambat. Hidup adalah untuk hari ini. Tidak bekerja satu hari bisa berarti tidak makan di hari yang sama.

Berbicara dekat dengan kaum marjinal, memandang kesederhanaan lingkungan tempat tinggal mereka, membuat saya tersadar. Saya adalah city girl. Saya seharusnya bersyukur bisa merasakan pembangunan infrastruktur yang begitu cepat di Jakarta, menikmati perputaran uang yang melesat dari gedung tinggi hingga warung tegal di ibukota, mengenyam pendidikan universitas ternama di kota besar, sementara di sini mereka bersyukur masih bisa makan hari ini, berlega hati masih bisa menggarap tanah nenek moyang yang sertifikatnya bahkan tak lagi mereka pegang.

Perjalanan kali ini tidak membawa saya kepada kemegahan duniawi yang saya elu-elukan: diskon di megastore, kuliner terkemuka yang mak nyuuus rasanya, ataupun hotel bintang lima. Kali ini saya duduk ngedeprok di rumah warga beralaskan karpet tipis berwarna hijau yang menutupi lantai semen. Saya tidak makan dengan piring kuningan tapi dengan piring sederhana yang menyajikan sayur bening dan ikan lele goreng. Tapi lihat bagaimana mereka bersyukur atas kenikmatan hidupnya.

Hari ini saya belajar untuk tidak mudah mengeluh dan bersyukur atas nikmat Allah.

Dirgahayu Indonesia ke 62 tahun. Entah kapan seluruh rakyat Indonesia akan secara merata menikmati hidup yang layak.

Catatan:

Menjelang 17 Agustus, saya mencoba menulis dengan Bahasa Indonesia yang baik dan benar sesuai ajaran Paman Yus Badudu. Semoga tidak terlalu buruk, mengingat nilai Bahasa Indonesia saya C (setelah mengulang, sebelumnya hanya D saja).

Just another Monday

Today on astrology.yahoo.com...


Weekly Career for July 23, 2007
Provided by Astrology.com

Give them every reason to be confident in you at the beginning of the week -- your past accomplishments, your step-by-step plan, your perfectly suited skillset. You're ready, so just show it. Then Wednesday and Thursday are full speed ahead, with you doing some of your most impactful, impressive stuff. Take time for someone with a minor issue; you can fix it in a snap and they'll remember the favor. Back up and read that report, run those numbers, assess the landscape around Friday and Saturday. The input you seek out now informs your perspective and on Sunday something great can evolve.

Gosh, I really need this to happen!

The cartoon is courtesy of www.animalsciencemonitor.com

Lain padang lain belalang (Kangen)

Akhirnya....ketemu blog lagi..... ;)
Udah kangen beraatsss neh.

Yep! Udah dua mingguan lebih saya teler abis. Keseret2, kebanting2, kejedug2. Judulnya sih saya bener2 keriting! Pasalnya di pekerjaan baru ini, pace-nya cepat edun dan hampir tiap hari ada event. Dan tentu aja, ga ada istilah menunggu saya bisa, so I have to learn while I am running. Hiksss.... Tiap hari saya dateng jam 7.30 dan pulang jam 8.000. Kalau sampe rumah jam 9.00 dan Sha udah tidur, sediiiihhh bangeed. Kayak abis membuat dosa besar.

Sedikit demi sedikit, saya mulai bisa "berdiri" (jangan jorok ah mikirnya.. ;p). Kalau tadinya terseok2. Sekarang mulai berdiri, walaupun sebelah kaki masih suka tijalipeuh ;). Mulai beradaptasi dengan budaya, pola kerja, dan prosedur. Walaupun, saya akui, dengan berubahnya issue (dari HIV ke politik) yang saya geluti seringkali menyebabkan otak saya harus "berjuang lebih keras" daripada sebelumnya. Bayangin, dalam suatu meeting...
Boss 1 to Boss 2: "Eh, ada sisa uang tuh. Gimana kalo buat PSK aja?"
Honey (dalam hati): "Anjiiir. Meni terus terang geneee. Ga malu apa ada gw kok ngomong2 soal PSK (Pelaku Seks Komersial). Busyet!"
Boss 2: "O iya... Hanny aja dimintain tolong."
Honey (dalam hati): "Haaaah?????"
Boss 1: "Han, tolong ya, TOR PSK...Perlindungan Saksi dan Korban ditindaklanjuti..."
DUNGPLANG!!!!!!